The bathroom floor can be a close companion. It’s a good place to let out emotions when they catch us unawares – laying there, on the floor, as we sob over unwanted but real and present thoughts. Do you know what I’m talking about? Those “bathroom floor” moments? Those times when you are happily having … Continue reading Those Shower Thoughts →

Do not go back to where you were, little one. Oh please, do not let go of all you have learnt. Precious girl; do not let these lies claim your life again. Do not let the voices spoken in darkness overwhelm you once more. ... Your mighty saviour fought hard for you: He shed his … Continue reading To the hurting child, from a little voice of hope →

A few months ago I started writing this in response to World Eating Disorder Awareness Day (WEDAD)'s 2020 theme; “share your story”. Whilst sharing my story is exactly what I, in so many ways, do on this blog, I realised I have not actually told you my story as a narrative- that is, going through … Continue reading My Story – Part One →

The journey I have been through with anorexia has caused a rollercoaster of emotions, fights, hurt, tension and brokenness between myself and those closest to me. My heart aches when I see the pain I caused my friends and family, and the tension it brought to these relationships. The people who care for you the … Continue reading Why, despite the pain, my mum continues to inspire me in my recovery →

Deciding what to name my blog was in some ways easier and some ways harder than I expected. As much as we like to think otherwise, a name does convey meaning, and I wanted this blog to convey hope, as I believe there is hope of overcoming an eating disorder, even in the midst of … Continue reading What’s in a Name? →

I am so very tired at the moment. So incredibly tired. It sort of feels as though my energy has decided to take a sudden leave of absence without asking my permission…. I’ve been busy, yes, but these last couple of weeks I have significantly reduced my workload, and yet still I cannot get through … Continue reading My Mental Health Keeps Putting my Life on Hold →

Sometimes I forget that my body weight is "normal"- that is, it is a good, healthy size for me to be at, and the weight of it corresponds with that. It is so easy to forget this. It is so easy, when seeing the way my body rolls when I bend, or the way my … Continue reading What Even is Normal? →

So I actually write quite a bit of poetry, but have not previously shared it as I've always been too scared. It is something very peronal to me (you thought my usual posts were personal haha) and I use poetry as a way of expressing thoughts and feelings and processing things. Often my poems are … Continue reading You – A Poem →

Life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes it’s many ups, other times it’s many downs. Recently, my life has definitely seemed filled with a lot more downs than ups. I will spare you the details, but there has been a lot going on and many hard things to deal with and consequently my mental … Continue reading The Small Yet Precious Moments →

She lifted her head and gazed up at the world. And she smiled. She smiled because she did not know how to tell the world she was hurting. She smiled because she could not express all that she was feeling. She smiled because she was told that she should. She smiled because she thought it … Continue reading A smile hides a thousand sorrows →